Future?

I am in such  a bad mind set at the moment, and I really can't seem to find my way out of it.

I'm really worried about the future, not because of the whole "end of days" prophecy floating around, but more simple reasons. Will I have a job that I love, be able to afford a nice apartment or home, find love? I want to be a journalist and/or critic, yet all I ever hear is "print is dead". Let's face it, anyone with a computer thinks they're a writer, I'm one of the many that share that belief. But is there anything that makes me special or different, that sets me above the pack in any way?

It's a lot of negative uncertainty that I hope to shake off. Still you never really can forget about the future, unless you're too caught up in the present. At this time in my life I'm in a lull, just kind of waiting for something to start happening. I hear life is what happens when you're waiting around, so what does it do if you try to chase it and it's not there?

I guess I should just be thankful life is pretty easy for the moment, you couldn't tell by my age but I've been through some pretty stressful events in my time (alcoholics, drug addicts, homelessness). Never look the gift horse in the mouth and never, ever complain about it.

Sorry about the overly personal post lately, I promise I will resume movie reviews soon.

Love, me.